That’s cold, Ems. You know you’re supposed to save your lunches for me.”“And like I told you last time, my lunches want to see other people.

It’s easy to tell someone something you know they want to hear. What’s not so easy is following up on those easy words and making what you said come to life. It’s in taking the words and turning them into actions where most people give up and bail out.

I have no idea what the hell is going on with me lately. I haven’t had any contact with this girl for two days, yet she’s the first thing that comes to mind before I go into the fight from hell and now I’m sitting here practically dying inside to read what she’s writing to me. I shouldn’t give two shits but it seems to be all I care about.

I'm only going to hurt this girl. I hurt everyone I touch. It's the way I'm wired.

Doing the right thing isn’t supposed to hurt this bad. When you’re faced with a choice and you choose the right one, there’s supposed to be this big moment of clarity you experience. It’s an overall kind of feeling; where you just know instinctively that the choice you’ve made is right and you move ahead feeling lighter and better than you’ve ever felt because of it.

You know what Ames? Come find me when you pull the stick out of your ass. You’re delusional and I’m over it.

Getting to know her, it’s supposed to be a game. A way to keep me occupied, but now there’s nothing about it that feels like a game. I want her attention because I actually like the way it feels when I have it.

Whoever said that the truth will set you free was full of shit.

This isn't about weakness and strength anymore. I know I've made it about that because of what Bruce drilled into my head, but what this girl went through, it has nothing to do with her being weak. I've only talked to her two days out of the last four and I know she's stronger than all of the people I call friends. I know it because she's stronger than me.

The thing is, she sounds fucking beautiful and I want to tell her that so badly it's giving me a headache just thinking about it, but I don't because I can't lead her on.